THE BURNING DESIRE

Monday, June 12, 2006

Sleeping beauty
















DESERT ROSE

I saw a rose in a desert,

In the silence of sand.

She is like a mirage to me,

With no water, no soil.

She standing tall, defying the law

I ask, how thou live in the heat of sun?

She rejoicing her essence and said

"Where nothing grows up, there’s chance of love

Love does not seek conditions,

It makes place in desert too".

I listened and smiled and walked

On the way, leaving a trail behind………

Friday, June 09, 2006

THE PERSON WHOM I HATED THE MOST

THE PERSON WHOM I HATED THE MOST

Today I am here to make a confession, you are my jury and u will give the verdict. Yes, I killed the person whom I hated the most .Yes it was a cold-blooded murder, I committed the unthinkable act but he left no other options for me. If I had not killed him then it would be very impossible for me to retain my own identity from his clutches.
One fine morning when I woke up, I found him sitting opposite to me and staring at me with his bloodshot eyes... I faced the stark reality of his presence in my life and I shivered with fear. Yes I was running from him for how long I don’t remember but more I tried to ran away from him the more he swayed control over me. I have no respite from him and I hated him from core of my heart. He traumatized me and was on verge of killing my true self. He always tried to dictate my life. Whenever I tried to rebel against him he ruthlessly trampled me under his feet. He ruled over me.
For him I was like a puppet that danced to his whims and fancies. He occupied my inner space and slowly and steadily he made inroad towards me, I always thought him as insignificant part but my unacknowledgement of his presence in my life proved disastrous for me. He confronted me in his monstrous proportions and I was unable to put a brave front against him. He imprisoned me in his old ideas and his set of obsolete principles. He always presented a false picture of mine; I hated his gloominess and perversity.
He started dictating me in every walk of life. He tried to make me what I was not, I battled with him but was vanquished .I lost the hope, and I knew I am going to die an inglorious death. I recollected how I first met him. He came with a pleasant smile on his face but I was unable to see his devil intentions. Yes he was spreading like a cancer and I have to confront him. At that morning he sat opposite to me I questioned him about my existence and my purpose of life for which I descended on this earth, he was speechless. He didn’t utter a word, just stared at me with cruel blank eyes.
I wanted to be tame less, swift and proud, I wanted to smell the fragrance of freedom and at that moment I gathered my all energy and thundered “enough is enough I want to be free from you” my voice echoed and my confident voice showed chinks in his Armour, yes I saw the silver lining on the horizon, he was trembling and shaking, I got hold of a flower vase at my bed side with dried daffodils in it and I threw it with full intensity at him. It made a deafening sound and soon the room splashed with shreds of glass of the mirror. The room showered in bright sunlight. I massacred my fears and inhibitions; yes I killed my pessimistic self. In pure ecstasy I came out of my bed and immersed myself in the heavenly benediction of sunrays. It was a brand new day for me…

Is this life after Death?

LONE SURVIVOR IN A PLANE CRASH

Dreams do come true, yes the long cherished dream of mine to visit the empire city, New York came to life when I got an assignment to cover the life of a person who survived lonely on an isolated island after the crash of his plane. I knew it’s my lifetime chance I grabbed it with both of my hands. My sojourn started the airport beaming with life. I found myself in the sea of faceless faces, tense, nostalgic, a whole sea of emotions can be felt there, my mother there to see off. It’s really a long journey for me to be away from my mother .Both of us have in tears in eyes, I don’t know why I flowed in emotions. Exactly at 9’o clock at night the airbus 380 took the flight. I was having jitters but comforted by a fellow passenger who was going to meet her son, a lady in her late 50s .Its lively atmosphere out there in the plane, but the harmony of that joy soon broken when out of a sudden, a big thud , and a bang ,the plane started to fall down like a wing less bird ,everybody was in state of disbelief ,transfixed in their positions .I can hear the deep breaths , chanting of mantras ,and teardrops trickling down their cheeks, a blackout with a deafening sound and then the silence of night and I lost my consciousness..
The first ray of light fell on my bruised eyes and through the broken glass pane I saw that one by one the stars faded into the aura of sunlight. I woke up to a different world. The first question that crossed my mind was that Am I alive or dead? Is this a life after death? all kind of thoughts flooded my mind but what I saw was death all around me ,mutilated bodies , bodies charred to death. I was aghast, soon I came to my senses and I searched for sign of life in my fellow co -passengers ,unfortunately after searching all 213 passengers I concluded that I am the lone one who survived, when I realized the grossness of situation , I was in a state of disbelief. I tried my best to come in terms with the situation, trauma and despair lurked around me , but then my will to fight against the odds, put me in great spirits, my resolution to live got stronger ,my will to survive increased in leaps and bounds,now I ventured out from that ghastly place. I paid my homage to my fellow co passengers and my struggle to survival begun. The island was Eden with tranquility and peace all around.,wild trees and shrubs spread wide and far , an eerie silence trying to gobble me up, where to go ,what to do .soon I found my way to the highest ground on that lonely island. From there I was only able to see the endless sparking blue line meeting at the horizon. Nature’s innocuous beauty I can only admire but then I felt no chance of my survival. My mind flash backed and I recounted that how during my celebrity interviews I used to ask about this particular situation and most of the celebrities romanticized about it. I was seeing the reality, and I felt how it was to be alone on an island cut off from the human civilization. I thought of exploring the island, which was still untouched by human greed. I wandered all around the island, saw exotic species of fruits and flowers, I ate voraciously to fill my appetite and after wandering for a so long a ennui fell on me I under the shade of coconut trees…but my fears, anguish and killing circumstances made me mad, from where should I search for inspiration, in a flash some inspiring lines enlightened me” life has its own course, just like the river which flows everywhere, undermining rocks, terrain and vegetation, there is always a pass to squeeze from there, does not matters whether in front of her a strong rock standing, she has the determination to rip apart it and to flow through to it” yes a silver line of hope I saw at the distant horizon, I ran fast as I could to reach the site of accident , everything there was horrible . I somehow managed to enter the pilot’s cabin , the pilot was still in his driving seat with his firm hands holding the speed gear , showed his grit at the call of duty, I tried to locate the machine that keeps a plane in control with its air traffic control system ,The pilots cabin was full with small and big lights ,different sorts of buttons ,it took time to locate my last ray of hope ,when I heard the faint voice of instruction coming out from the machine“A-380, locate your position” , ,I was speechless my joy seemed to have no boundaries I tried my best to locate my position, but without any assurance the gleam of hope faded away I felt helpless , my eyes got wet , I ran once again to the far end of the island. Wrote HELP on the beach and moved towards the top part of the area ,my survival instincts losing away ,I can see the stars started coming up on the firmament ,I found a CAVE where I spent the night, I don’t know when night passed but my eyes opened when I heard a loud sound of wind gushing into the cave ,I thought it as a nature’s fury ,but it was two helicopters who I had a sight of relief , yes it was the rescuing team. They approached the accident site covered up the dead bodies and made arrangements for their return. After seeing a human face I understood how it was difficult to live in the elements of earth without any human assistance .I wrote my assignment but instead of that American hero it was me who recounted the whole ordeal.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

ME LOST

Me lost in the dreams of desire
Me lost in the realms of imagination
Me lost in the quagmire of fantasy
Me lost on the grounds of reality
Me lost in the search of solace
Me lost in the monotonous life
Me lost in the shadows of past
Me lost in search of future
Me lost in grief and sorrow
Me lost in gay and joy
Me lost in beauty of nature
Me lost in the fury of nature
Me lost in moonlit night
Me lost in beautiful sunshine
Me lost in the materialism of mankind
Me lost in the spiritualism of human kind
And to find “me”
I have lost “ I”.